My selfishness

Fortunately I got to talk to you again
Unfortunately I think I'm hurting you

Fortunately I persuaded you to see me
Unfortunately I think you truly don't want to

Fortunately one of my friends saw you
Unfortunately you didn't seem to look well

Fortunately the pain in my heart for losing you is easing
Unfortunately my stomach is killing me with guilt

Fortunately I'm not strong enough to decline the meeting
Unfortunately I'm gonna feel horrible till we do.