Yesterday I tried not to cry last night, I just wanted to die, this morning I didnâ??t know wot to do except wanting to be with u.
Thinking about u is easy I do it everyday but missing u is a heart ache and that pain will never go away.
Itâ??s really hard for me to let people know, as I donâ??t let my feelings show
I miss you so much, all the little things that you did thinking about them now always makes me weak, your smile, your eyes and the way u speak, with out u Lee Iâ??m not me.
I need you here with me, you are my everything, and Iâ??m so lost without you
We made promises we made plans an now I just donâ??t know wot to do
All I feel is fear and wen I think about you I have to fight back every tear
Iâ??m so scared Lee, you kept me 2gether, Iâ??m trying to stay strong but I donâ??t know for how longâ?¦â?¦â?¦..
Iâ??m trying to keep a smile on my face but itâ??s a smile that will never last
Like it used to wen I was with you.
99% of the time the happiness and the smiles I show are fake
As Iâ??m only doing that for everyone elseâ??s sake
I would rather lye in bed thinking about you and cry all day
All the bois and family are the only reason why I get up, and get thru each day
Iâ??m trying to be strong for all of them, I like to put smiles on there faces, but sometimes I cant and thatâ??s ok.
I no longer know were I stand, I no longer know wot Iâ??m going to do, where Iâ??m going to go, if Iâ??m going to get thru this, or if this is going to ruin me completely. I donâ??t know how to ask for help babe, as Iâ??m always the one who helps people.
I canâ??t think straight anymore, I canâ??t concentrate on anything, Iâ??m always feeling angry an sad,
I try not to show the pain so I always wait for evry1 to go to bed and Iâ??ll just keep saying your name.â??
There is so much I have to say, so much I want to tell you, but i can't, im wanting a reply from you and its hard coz i know im not going to get one.
Your on my mind 24/7 everything I do, everywhere I go, every little thing at home reminds me of you, every car u drove, to the footpaths we walked, the clothes you wore, the things we talked about an the things I want to talk about your everywere i go the memories i have of you i will keep close.
But I will keep going cause I know deep down you would want me to be happy and when I finally find that happiness I know to grab it an hold on to it for as long as I can.
I miss you babe I always will the hardest thing is letting go of you especially when you are the only one that kept me smiling, the only one who knew me and the only one that loved me for me, you said I was your angel and you are mine and our love that we felt for each other will go on and never be forgotten.
Always and forever yours Rest In Peace my Darling x0x0x0x0x0x
