Baby fears

Fears of a baby is painful
the days keep going on so long
and i feel as though I'm dying
how could one decision be so wrong

my head feels so faint
and my life seems real low
I'm sick to the stomach
of a possibility i don't want to know

how could i actually choose
I'm way to young for this
this responsibility is to much
my life used to be bliss

my mind keeps racing
too many questions fill my mind
of how to fix the problem myself
and the answer i don't want to find

growing inside me could be my baby
but what am i going to do
i cant keep pretending I'm fine
they'll soon know whats true

i don't need this right now
i just want things to be OK
how would i tell him
i wouldn't know what to say

I'm so lonely and afraid
keeping a secret so hidden
i just keep thinking aboutit
and it seems almost forbidden

but i don't want to be a murderer
the guilt would consume me
and i would feel so horrible
of the future it never got to see

please god please don't do this to me
this baby can not remain
I'm sick of pleading for help
i cant handle anymore of this pain