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I don't know how to put it in words
Then to say it wasn't meant for words
I don't want to tell
I don't want to speak

I know its wrong
The way I suffocate inside
The wear tears flow and I wipe them away or turn to the sky
I don't want you to see
I'm not yet tired of keeping secrets
Not till I find that one human being
That wants to listen
That wants to speak
That wants to open up to me.

Till them my lips are sealed under pad lock and key.