I owe u my life

When people look at you they see someone everyone loves, someone everyone wants to be,
But when I look at you I see pain, I see anger and hate and I see that youre hurting maybe just as much as me.
I watch you hide it and watch your happiness fade away,
I wish I could help you like you help me in so many ways.
When I cut myself, when I swallow those pills your always on my mind,
And it makes me dig that knife in deeper cause I know I'm wrecking our friendship, and your one of a kind.
I think you deserve better, more than I can ever be,
But I'm selfish and without you in my life there would be no me.
When we fight it feels like I have lost everything I care for,
And my world falls apart, so I cut myself until I fall crying to the floor.
You will never understand how I feel about you,
I love you in a way I never knew to be true.
I look at you and I just have to smile,
Cause know matter what happens you were in my life for a while.
I swear to you, I promise this is true,
I will never forget you and no matter what I'm still alive because of you.
Your always going to be the person I owe my life to,
And without you I don't know what I would do.
I just wish I could make you happy, make you see,
How awesome you really are, how much you mean to me.
It's not what you think; I don't love you in the way you see,
I love you more than anything for helping me.
I'm happier than I have been in a long time just by having you in my life,
And I'm never going to let you walk away from me without a fight.
I'm never going to leave you alone and I'm never going to turn my back on you,
I will be there as soon as you pick up that phone.
I guess what I'm just trying to say to you,
You're the best thing that could happen to me; you saved me so thankyou,