Taken

Once too many people
told me to let go;
Tried to take the advice
I didn't want to though.

I had bad episodes
That led me further behind
I held on so tightly
everything crowded my mind

I look at my past
and i see how it got me here
Sometimes it breaks me down
but its something I keep near

I plan out my future
From the mistakes that haunt me
I learn from the situations
I didn't choose to be put in

I investigate my memories
Connecting all the loose knots
I won't move forward
unless I put together the missing spots

I wondered why
I'm more mature then others
Why I take care of everyone
Like I'm a mother

Reminded at just age 7
I was taking care of my mom
Not knowing what was going on
Now I know she was depressed and drunk

Yes it hurts to go back
To figure out unanswered questions
But it hurts even more
When your child hood was taken