Today, I'm confused

It's obvious that you don't like me anymore
but I can't say the same about me and how
i'm feeling

I never moved on, it's sad to say and
i never thought I would be this depressed
but somehow....i am

I see you with her and somehow I want
to die,
I never thought that you could move on so fast
but i guess you did

You say you don't care about me, and i guess
thats fine I just wish you would have told me
in the beginning that way it wouldn't have
hurt that much

I loved you and I still do

I never told anyone to hit you in the head
during dodgeball that was their own
choice because they can see how much I'm hurting
because of what the hell you've put me in

I haven't cut in 2 years, but somehow I had
the sensation to do it again and this time to never
recover. I haven't had that feeling since my mom died

but somehow, somewhere inside of me, a part of me has died that I won't be able to get back;
my laugh, my jokes, my happiness and most of all....you