You'll Never Understand Me

I thought you understood, the things I'm going through.
How tough life is, isn't best friend what I call you?
You made me feel important, I thought you cared for me.
I relied on your support, but I guess the real you I see.
Times were hard, I know it was hard for you too.
But I didn't think there was anything, we couldn't get through.
I guess I am shocked, I thought you understood my pain.
I guess not, so let me explain.
It helps me to cope, though my methods aren't the best.
Don't say there's no hope, stop sounding like all the rest.
I thought you could understand me, I can't quit just because you say.
As much as I'd like this to, it doesn't work that way.
It's more addictive than smoking, once you start you can't stop.
You know my secret, please don't blow your top.
If you can't understand me, than I have nothing else to give.
I'm not trying to die, it's just my sick way to live.