My Confusion

Confusion inherits my soul

absorbs my strength

i can't breathe anymore

the walls closing in

the light goes out

it stabs my heart, upsets my stomach

she forgave him, she gave chance after chance

am i the only one who sees the true colors of his heart

his nice words and kind gestures bring me down even more

I'm so confused by him

a Dove one day, a wild panther the next

both sides tear at me

i take my blade and slice through my skin

the pain dissolves, even for a little while i feel whole

i wait on the day that i can leave my hell

but will it get better,

will i be able to live

or will the memories cause me agony

and cause my blade to cut too deep

What will my confusion do