A Struggle To Accept Myself

by Thoughtless Consideration   May 23, 2007


Another lonely night
Wasted dreaming about a hopeless fight.
What do I even want?
For someone to care? For you to lend me a thought?
Just give me an adequate excuse
To help me stop this mental abuse.
Everything taken from me-
The door of oppurtunity's locked, and I can't find the key.
Struggling with myself for you,
Why won't you notice my problems?
Insecurities run through my blood like a poision tattoo.
Look at how I hurt myself
Just for you to realize I need help.
All I want is just a little love
Maybe a gentle touch instead of a careless shrug.
Don't take me seriously though, please-
It's probably easer to just ignore me and hope this pain will eventually ease.
I'm going to accept all my issues,
I'll start smiling and I won't need so many tissues.
Pretty soon I'll be normal- completely conformed.
Blending in is better than being strange and deformed.
I'm so damn useless, but I've got hope so it's okay.
The devil once told me there were about a thousand miracles every day.

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  • 17 years ago

    by xxSnow Angelxx

    WOW!!...u've got the feeling across so perfectly thru this one.....n i so loved the last line...n the whole write was like soo filled with so much pain..i loved it..n christ!i can so very well relate to this one too...
    Excellent work
    5/5
    xxPoojaxx

  • 17 years ago

    by PoeticJustice

    I understand it better now that u told me u were talking to urself. this line is reallygood:

    Pretty soon I'll be normal- completely conformed.
    Blending in is better than being strange and deformed.

    5/5

  • 17 years ago

    by PoeticJustice

    This was amazing. i love it. it is very original. i love the last line. i have a question though, the person u are talking to, is it urself or actually someone else??

  • 17 years ago

    by NyellMoonlight

    I love this poem, I can relate to the feeling you're describing. The last line is one my favorites, good ending for a good poem. Keep writing!

  • 17 years ago

    by x Mo x

    Holy cow! You just wrote what Ive been thinking for the past forever! You did it so well too! It was so full of pain and full of truth. Im sorry that you feel this way, because this feeling sucks. Great Job!

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