Adieu, my best friend.

I'm angry right now, wouldn't you be?
But I still want you to know what you mean to me,
I know you won't read this, now that you're dead,
But I will tell you things, I could never have said,
I think of you all of the time,
I've always wished that you were mine,
You enter each and every dream,
I'm in love with you, it would seem,
I'm jealous of everyone else you love,
But now you're watching from up above,
I miss you whenever you leave,
You're gone forever, but I can't grieve,
My mind is numb, my heart is cold,
In these few days, I've grown so old,
When you were here, you hurt me so,
But that pain was better, than watching you go,
So now I sit here, into space I stare,
On my finger, it is your ring I wear,
It still hasn't hit me yet,
You were the most perfect friend I never met,
And now you're dead, and my hope is gone,
The end of this, your life is done,
But it was too soon, so now I cry,
I never got to say Goodbye,
I never got to look you in the eyes and say,
I love you more with every day,
I've never felt pain such as this before,
And it just keeps hurting ever more,
So you see, it is not just yourself you kill,
But I still love you and I always will,
I will miss you until the end of time,
So much darling, that there is no rhyme
That sums up how I feel for you,
I love you, and I bid you adieu.