More then a love poem

I'll start from the beginning
When you were just a friend
Always had each others back
Together till the end

I've spent so many years
Right here by your side
You have never let me down
Or made me want to hide

But now those days are gone
When I look into your eyes
A part of me is missing
When I cover up with lies

Never thought I'd tell you
How much you mean to me
Scared you wouldn't understand
Scared you want to flee

Inside I know I love you
No longer can I ignore
But what about our friendship
To me it meant much more

I know I have to tell you
But don't know where to start
I don't know how to say the words
Written on my heart

Always knew that deep inside
You're my dream come true
Everything falls in its place
And I find my way to you

That night you looked me in the eye
And took me by the hand
I finally knew just what to say
To make you understand

I said don't be confused
When I tell you how I feel
Because what I say is true
And the way I feel is real

I never knew I had a dream
Until that dream was you
And when I look into your eyes
I know it will come true

You didn't know what to do
And you weren't sure what to say
You slowly stood, to your feet
And began to walk away

Then you started walking back
Back and forth you paced
To scared to even move
I wondered was it all a waste

Then you sat down next to me
And looked up at the sky
Trying to hide the single tear
That'd fallen from you eye

My heart began racing
When you started to speak
And when I heard, what you had said
I started feeling weak

You asked, how can you say that?
We make the best of friends
I'd hate to see that thrown away
I'd hate to see that end

I wish you'd just forget this
Forget the way you feel
Even though you say it is
I don't believe its real

Not sure what to do or say
Stared down at my feet
So embarrassed, so ashamed
The worst kind of defeat

I though for sure you'd feel the same
That we would be in love
My one and only, here for me
Sent from up above

To hard to just forget
As if it were a game
After everything I've said
Things will never be the same

I couldn't end it, here like this
I needed to know why
What's wrong with the next step?
And giving us a try

And when I asked you to explain
Your expression told it all
You said there's so much more to this
As if trying to stall

You wouldn't look me in the eye
Why can't you just explain?
No longer could I see your face
But still I felt you pain

I wondered what you were hiding
And why this was so hard
Something hidden in your words
You thought you had to guard

Every time you tried to speak
Something pulled you back
I wonder is it someone else
My heart felt under attack

Is it something I have said?
Something I have done
Just forget her, whoever she is
I know that I'm the one

You said, please don't worry
Because I feel it too
I just don't know how to explain
I don't know what to do

You have helped me through a lot
But this would be too much
All I need from you right now
Is your gentle touch

I didn't understand the point
If it wasn't going to last
What's the secret eating him?
Hidden in his past

I said that it wouldn't be enough
And that I needed more
But scared to death of what you'd say
Inside I feel so tore

You told me that you loved me
As you looked me in the eye
But the few short words that you said next
Made me want to die