When you read my love poems ,
you must all think bad of me.
Yes I have a partner ,
but my pain you don't see.
I'm not in love with my partner ,
because past loves caused me pain.
Security and stability were all I wanted ,
vowing to never love again.
My first love lasted 2 years ,
all that time he cheated on me.
I loved him more than anything ,
forever with him I wanted to be.
He had an odd habit ,
of disappearing from time to time.
No job but always had money ,
ok so thats no big crime.
The last time he disappeared ,
was when I'd finally had enough.
I waited for him but nothing ,
then in time I met my second love.
By him I became pregnant ,
at the time he was over the moon.
Then one day he said he needed time ,
and that he'd be back again soon.
He never called me for weeks ,
then I found out he was seeing someone else.
Seems he wasn't ready to be a dad ,
so once again I was by myself.
Just before my baby was due ,
my first love came to see me.
Shocked to find me pregnant ,
but said with me he wanted to be.
He couldn't tell me where he'd been ,
what he'd done for over a year.
I said I could never trust him ,
cheating on me again I would fear.
Not long after that I got a call ,
my first love had gone forever.
He had been killed in an accident ,
him and another girl together.
So left broken hearted by two men ,
my baby was all that mattered to me.
Love for my baby was like no other ,
his dad by the way we never did see.
I longed for security and stability ,
and thats where my partner comes into it.
Please don't think I'm cold hearted ,
for I do care about him a little bit.
It has worked for 12 years ,
only now love as come along.
I have fallen in love with another ,
but to hurt my partner would be wrong.
