Not done, sorry

My insanity brings the best in you

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another cut at my wrist
another sigh in my voice
i was nothing other than another toy
you used me for your pleasure
you took advantage of me.
you made me cry,
then you made me bleed.
you fed me lies
you made me weep
and after all that
you still made me weak.

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It started when i was younger
then it continued on
and then it never stopped
then i was too far gone.

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excuse me but you never gave me my heart back after you kindly tore it out

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Nothings gonna replace all the thoughts in my head
how can you suddenly make me want to be dead?

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You walked in the room, with a gracious flow
you sent a presence that was unknown
the touch of you was simply unthought
a thought of you would lift me up
you took my heart, the second you entered
and changed my life with every breath you breathed

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if you want to talk about pain
i will be your conversation.
do not feed me lies of my immaturity
and how i know nothing of this so called pain
like i have never been hurt
you were the one who used me day after day
you were the one who brought about this pain
yet you sit there with a grin on your face
telling me you “love” me and you would give for another chance
as you sit there begging her, to take your hand

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I try not to hurt your feelings
but you've hurt all mine

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This is what comes from the lack of care
and the over whelming amount of being just there
never being told you're beautiful
never being good enough.
Now I'm crying to boys
about stuff they don't care about
because none of them care
I don't care about myself.

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Another cut at my wrist
another sigh in my voice
i was nothing other than a toy
you used me for your pleasure
you put me down on every note
i acted like i didn't care
but every time a tear choked.

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I want to be a cry. I want to be a cut in the wrist. I want to be a suicide.

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Im hopelessly devoted
and there's nothing i can do
All i can ever think about
Is being next to you

Your soft gentle touch
As you wrap your arms around me
The way your voice
seduces me

I see you in my sleep
even in my wake
even when you're not near
i see you everywhere

This is true love
It has to be
I always want to be with you
Always you and me...

You're so cute as you sit there
I always wanted you
You have made me so happy

The little things you did
Were cute at first
But now it's dying down
Love's hit a burst

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I'm the biggest failure
that you'll ever know

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i always said i wanted more

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i look in your eyes and all to see
is a blank space filled with nothing

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other people would be happy... while i feel awful

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like falling from the ceiling
something that just can't be done
when I'm feeling nothing
yet you've seem to won

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I'm not supposed to like you
I'm not supposed to care
But seeing you with her
That's something I just can't bear
It's not that I dont want to
I really do
But its just the fact
That you never gave me a chance to be with you
I've tried to move on
But seeing your face
screen name, being mentioned
It's hard

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Im growing older, im getting weak these are the things, that make u think, life is pointless, no need to go on.

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excuse me but you never gave me my heart back after you kindly tore it out

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The clock strikes three
I'm now down
A suicide just commited
I'm on the ground

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Nothings gonna replace all the thoughts in my head
how can you suddenly make me wanna be dead?

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you asked how i felt i said okay
only for you to turn around...and wish to die today

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How i sit here longing,
to be erased more and more everyday

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I never would have thought
about taking this gun
take this gun
to my head
take away all the "No"s
all the let downs
take away him
stuff you don't need

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Without you i'd be a mess, a complete disaster... nothing more than depressed

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Broken is how i feel
a toy with too much use
once displayed on a shelf
now a total mess

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never living up
to be what they want
never good enough

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Do you like me
Or are you leading me on?
I really like you
Falling deeply

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Ignore me.
its okay i dont exist.
come before me.
okay i wont be missed.

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I'm sleep deprived.
Got nothing left.
Everthing about my life.
Is a total mess.

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If this is my last day. can i have a say.

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If i died right now would it be through? would everything we did just not matter to you.

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Knowing you dont care. wishing you'd notice

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thoughts unthought

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Mispoken words, lost thoughts

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One small step for man one giant leap for mankind

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And to know i never have a chance with you

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In all my dreams
That I wish would come true
I would sit there looking at you
You would look back
And it'd be a true romance

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Every poem i write
is always about you
I know you will never feel
the same as i do.
but yet i still dream
i still hope

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its a new beginning
beginning to end

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i toss and turn all through the night, you're begginging to burn, out of my sight

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But that will never happen
Sad but true
And it hurts me even more
To say I love you
More than before
More everyday
I just wish there was a way
To make you feel the same

I needed to save this too... lol

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i look at the blue sky thinking of u
if only if only
my dreams could come true

but you. you are like a ever lasting game, i never get to play, it drives me insane

its like a never ending game i never get to play i want my chance i cant hold back.

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I?m feeling sad
Kinda depressed
I always wanted
To get this off my chest
I wanted to let you know
How I really feel
And now I guess
Your feelings were real
But I still feel sad
And it?s taking over
I never thought
That this would be over

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Wearing red silk
barely covering ones self
walking to the bed
mind tricks being played
throwing hints, lights dimmed
opening everything;
locked away for so long
licking lips, rubbing hips
the night has just begun
clothing being removed
locking the door
no one now can enter this love room
bites

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still not done of course
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