I'm stuck in the past,
The happiness never seems to last.
I don't know what to do,
I'm so haunted by all those memories of you.
Part of me wants to let you go and be free,
But its the memories that are holding on to me.
Part of me wants to never let go,
I want to keep holding on to you.
I'm haunted by your memories everyday,
It tells me that the pain is here to stay.
I will never run from the pain,
The pain thats slowly driving me insane.
Some days I just want to run away,
But sometimes holds me here, something makes me stay.
It would feel like I was leaving you,
Which I would never let myself do.
Some days the pain runs so deep,
I can't even sleep.
When I do, the dreams just taunt me,
Your face they barely let me see.
Some days I'm so numb I can't even feel it.
Giving me false hope that I can learn to live with it.
Until the very next day,
When the pain rushes back to stay.
Some days I can't talk, or make a sound.
Some days I want to watch my blood spill on to the ground.
I miss how happy you made me, how happy I used to be.
Until that day I was forced to see,
The person who was there everyday,
being ripped away from me, and slip so far away.
One day I'll stop denying it, and face my fear,
And finally admit to myself, that your no longer here.
