I scream and cry
you wouldn't know
i pretend it's all a lie
but i have me to show
i have pain and frustration
sometimes there's nowhere to go
i know how you feel
but you wouldn't believe it
how many times I've watched you in pain
just praying for something to happen
to keep you sane
like this life isn't worth it
just some sick painful game
that's not true
i know it's hard to believe right now
but somehow you will get through
after everything
I'm going to be next to you
you had me in tears
you were wrecking my life
you let in all my fears
it's like you handed me the knife
but i got through all those years
so is it really that painful?
that you can't have me right now
don't you realize i was worse then you
i can't remember how
but i found my inner self
and showed everyone what i could be
for so long i tried my best to get your attention
but you could never see
to you i was just his little sister
and that's all i would ever be
i wanted just for a moment
for you to see something else
i thought it would go away when i got older
but all that followed was my truth
i tried to pretend you weren't my destiny
that fate had nothing to do with it
i tried to stay away from you
but you were what everything was leading back to
do you understand now
that everything was true?
when i couldn't show how i felt
or dare to imagine that life that I'd found
do you get my reason
to stop it coming around
all those photos that i found
all those memories that won't go away
i try to forget them
but sometimes my mind will stray
i don't know how
although it's better
it still hurts me to this day
it was always going to be you
and that's just never going to go away
