I wonder if my life would be different if he had left when i was two...i wonder if it would still hurt this much...i wonder how much different it would be...i wonder if we would have the same relationship or if i would even see him at all...i even wonder if he would be happier without me...i wonder if he could have gotten a better job if i hadnt messed it up...i wonder if he would still talk to my sister, that is if they ever get along...even though i wonder these things, i still know that he loves me and i love him and that is the way he and i want things to be...for now.
