How I'm Feeling

I feel as though Im living this life for no reason at all
I feel like the people I love most are trying to make me fall
I try my hardest to move on, try to let it all go
but I can't no matter how hard I try Im still feeling so low
Before, when I gave up drinking and I turned to my Lord above
For that little time I had Him in my heart I felt nothing for everything but love
Now I feel I've fallen and Im feeling worst than ever
I need my Lord to hold me coz I feel perfect when we're together
I wish for something here that will catch me when I fall
and someone who will pick me up and heal my every sore
I wish I was happy and in love with the Lord every single day
I wish for Him to come back in my life that is all I pray!