Pain

I hate the pain I feel
If I could I would end it all
So I slit my wrist I see blood
So much blood that I fall
I hate that I turn to this
When I hurt but I do
This numbs my pain
For a minute I don’t think about you
But its losing its edge
Its not doing anything for me
I must find some other way
To fill up something that is empty
So I turn to something deeper
Something more extreme
I turned to drugs and alcohol
But its not like it seems
At first it seemed to help
It took my mind off the pain
Then I start going down hill
Finally I put the needle to my vain
I get so deep into my new addiction
It takes over my life
I lose control its was over as soon
As I picked up that knife