Me n you

Sometimes i reminisce about you and i know it wrong.Cuz through all the pain you put me through I'm still strong.You in my mind each morning and in my sleep each night.Your the one i use to look up to and always put up a fight.I waited for you to wipe away the tears but today your the one who made them fall.So who do i have to blame my heart for still loving you or my mind that telling me not to?Who will i go to when my blood stop flowing and by veins turn purple and my face goes white and very thing i knew fades away