As I grabbed the knife to cut my wrists
I glanced over to see my precious little girl
I gazed into her eyes
And something about her eyes had stopped me from doing suicide
I began to think
How can I kill myself?
When I have a little girl who needs me
She’s helpless
So how is she going feed herself?
She’s only 4 months old
And I’m only 17 years old
My dad kicked lexis and me out on the street with nowhere to go
So we’re here in a shelter
With no clothes, no food
The day he had kicked her and I out
It was pouring down rain
So we ran to a dry place and slept till morning
At that time lexis was a newborn
I got on my knees that night and I prayed to god that lexis and I survive this horrible night
The next morning it was sunny out
Lexis started shaking, like she was cold
But it wasn’t cold out it was only 79degrees
So I took her to the hospital
It turns out that lexis had ammonia
I told the nurse I had no money, no place to go, no food, no clothes
Then the nurse said she’d pay the hospital bill
Then she took the day off and took lexis and I to the mall
And bought alexia clothes, bottles, pacifiers, diapers, food, and other things we needed
Then she took us to a shelter
So from they’re on lexis and I
Jumped from shelter to shelter
Then one day we ran into one of my teachers
She looked at lexis then at me
She then asked how I was
She didn’t know ‘bout lexis
I told her we weren’t doing well
And told her ‘bout lexis and my story is how my teacher put it at the end after I told her why we weren’t doing well
Then Mrs. Williams said you pour dears you can come and live with me until you can get a job
So here I am holding a knife
Ready to kill myself, thinking about my life and how wrong it went
And when I look over into lexis eyes once more
I then throw the knife and I picked up lexis and gave her a hug
And I took care of lexis who is now 4 months old and is healthy.
