FROM THE MOUTH OF AN ADDICT

I want to drink away all of my pain
until I become so unaware and numb
So I can't feel when my heart breaks
And so I can never feel the pain of the world,
coming down on my shoulders.

Give me the liquid novacane
So I cannot feel
So I do not have to deal
I want to shoot away
all my problems in my body
And in my life...
I want all my mistakes to be gone.

And I want
All the shit I have gone through
to just disappear.
I want everuone who has ever died
to come back,
So I can embrace what I lost...
Every last one of their hugs.

I want to taste the sweet nectar
of the world...
I want it to slide down my throat
and make me so munb
so that I cannot feel
So that I cannot deal...

I just wish
all the pain and all the shit
would just go away.