I love you alex

It was just suppose to be a talking thing
It was just suppose to be a meeting
It wasn't suppose to got this far

But it did

It's started out just messing around with my spots
Then it went to kissing my neck which you know i love
then it went to making out
then it went to sleeping together.....

I've loved you forever
I've loved you for so long
It was so hard for me to let you go
then this had to happen

Baby you where my first real love
You where my first real everything

But i let you go for that girl next door and you seemed happy with that

But then as i tried to move on
I went to crappy guys
I ran to you every time
They hit
Kicked
smacked
and cheated on me
You stood there as i cried my story
You stood there and held me so close i could smell your tears and after shave
You whispered everything i need to hear

You held my hands down as i tried to cut
You held my hands down as i tried to end all
You held my hands down as i tried to hurt you

You let me take it out on you
You let me yell at you
You let me act as though you where to blame for my pain

I guess you can't let go of that kind of love
I guess you can't let go of that kind of guy

You became my everything
You became my always
You became my lover

It was just suppose to be talking
It was never suppose to go this far

and now that is has I can't let it go
Now that i am yours again i want to fight harder
Now that i have you again i want you back more and more

but your with her
But your not mine
But you can never be mine

This thing just happened
This painful thing just started

But i have to let you go again
I have to lay my hands down
I have to walk away from you
I have to let you go back to her

I can't be what i use to be
You can't be mine

You can't hold my hands as i try to cut
You can't hold my hands has i try to end it all
you can't hold me close and tell me that you love me
You can't hold me close and let me cry

I can't hold you close as your sanity slips away again
I can't hold you close as you feel you have nothing left
I can't hold you close as everything around you falls do the ground
I can't hold you anymore

I have to wash my hands with uncertainty
I have to wash my hands of this all...i have to let it all go

I love you with all my heart
I love you with all my soul
I love you with everything i have
I love you Alex...
I love you Alex