The shock of reality... (Free verse.)

Sitting here, pen in hand - shaken from the overwhelming shock you get when you realize reality is... well, real.

I didn't expect forever out of you and me; however, I was still extremely disappointed with the way things turned out.

I love you... Or I loved you.
Maybe, I thought it so much... Maybe I just loved the thought of you?

Or perhaps it was lust?
No, it couldn't be... although they do both start with "L" and have four letters.

You were just a dream maybe?
Something I wanted so bad, I never realized I stopped wanting it?

I can't get you out of my mind.
You're my obsession.