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by Dee May 28, 2007 category : Sadness, depression / about depression
I am running out of things to say How much longer can I complain Seventy plus poems later And my life is still the same Living day after day And week after week How much longer will I put up with Broken promises and defeat Will I live forever Longing for something more Or will I find a will and the way To walk out of the door Will I move on And make my dreams come true Or will I continue Thinking of the memory of me and you Will I stop feeling guilty For not being in love with him And take the final stand And go back to my long lost love and friend What have I done so wrong To deserve this punishment What do I have to do To gain forgiveness and repent How many steps do I need to take To freely let my feeling show I keep on finding slamming doors No matter which direction I go They say that love will lead you back But I am not much of a believer For I am trying everything And still coming up as a deceiver I need to come back home to you I don't want to wait another day I cannot take the chance On letting this slip away You have been there for me For years and years on end I have been so lucky To still have you as a friend I need to sweep you up Before it is too late You are the love of my life You are my destiny and my fate We still reminisce About the days gone by We laugh and we joke But when we hang up, I cry I miss you so much More than you will ever know But I make a fool of myself When I let my feelings show I feel like a prisoner Trapped in my own life I pretend to keep on breathing Despite the weakening of my fight Some days it is easier To just play out my role A frigid, lonely women Who no longer has a soul. I feel like I am six feet under But I keep living day to day Trying to figure out the escape plan Desperately wanting to run away Some days I believe I am living in hell With no other way to describe Why can he not recognize The teardrops in my eyes Why can he not hear the coldness When I speak to him Why won't he just walk away Why will he not give in Why won't he release me For I have paid my dues It is time for me to start living It is time for me and you.........