This Never Ending Grief

You were always there,
When I needed hope.
You were always there,
When I needed a note.
You were there for me,
Through thick and thin,
Through the rough times,
Til' the end.
I beggeth you,
My self to blame,
For this terrible wake you came.
I can not stop,
This grudge I have.
For that man that ended thy life.
For that car that stopped your heart.
For that drink that killed all good.
This is my beg,
This is my plea,
For you to please forgive me.
I have no time to wait,
To know the truth.
For you are gone because of my selfish do's.