Am i wasting my tym

I love him more than words can say,
but something almost had me leave today,

he says these things that hurt so bad,
it hurts so deep,i feel real sad,

he says he loves me when he sees my pain,
yet somethin in my head tells me its a game,

evertym im happy i always end up in tears,
i just want to know have i wasted all these years,

a child holding us together anytime we could part,
scared of that day, scared to hav a broken heart