Drunk On Shadows

[try to find the meaning of this. Interpret it to yourself of what YOU think it's about & tell me in ur comment. Thanks!]

I'm drunk on shadows,
No where to go,
So many faces,
All hidden in one.

I try to tell myself,
It'll be okay in the morning,
But time ticks by so long and slow,
Feels like its never going to come.

I'm afraid of the dark,
Afraid of what it will hold,
I've seen the monster,
Hiding in it so many times.

When I fear the most,
It always seems to know,
Nothing leaves the thought,
Of knowing he's watching.

I'm scared for my life,
And everything is not okay,
It's three in the morning,
And I'm drunk on shadows.

He says he won't hurt me,
But I know the games he plays,
He says he just wants to comfort me,
But it's just another excuse to hurt me.

I'm afraid of the words he'll say,
When they ask what's wrong,
"Just a little screwed up girl,
Who abuses herself to get attention."

And time and time again,
They'll believe his lies,
But what will they say,
When he takes it to far.

Killing me inside,
Is what he's doing,
Ended up with a little baby girl,
And a pond full of names and lies.

I've been drunk on shadows,
For months on end,
Still waiting,
For that morning to come.