Live A Lie

*Song/poem...*

Why did this happen, why are you gone,
why is it over, life ends with the dawn,
sorrow grows, pain increases,
and I don't know, if it ever ceases,
I've shed my tears, time and time again,
facing my fears, but I know I can't win,
I need you here, I need you now,
but you are gone, and I don't know how,
I will ever make it through,
make it through life without you,

(Chorus)
When I live my life, I live a lie,
because I hide the pain,
when I live my life, I live a lie,
because I pretend you're OK,
when I live my life, I live a lie,
because I hide, the pain inside,
when I live my life, I live a lie,
because I pretend you're alright,

I tell myself, that it's not real,
but I can't shake, the pain I feel,
I tell myself, that it's not true,
I tell myself, it wasn't you,
but no matter what I seem to say,
I know it's you who's gone away,
and I don't know if I can make it,
all this pain, I just can't take it,
just come back to me, I pray,
please just help me find my way,

When I live my life, I live a lie,
because I hide the pain,
when I live my life, I live a lie,
because I pretend you're OK,
when I live my life, I live a lie,
because I hide, the pain inside,
when I live my life, I live a lie,
because I pretend you're alright,

You're gone for good, yet I pretend,
that you'll be here, 'till the end,
I can't face the fact, I can't take the pain,
my heart's getting lies, from my brain,
because if my heart knew you were gone,
I don't think that it could hold on,
I don't know if this wound will heal,
how could death so easily steal,
someone so loved, someone so dear,
taking afar, what once was so near,

When I live my life, I live a lie,
because I hide the pain,
when I live my life, I live a lie,
because I pretend you're OK,
when I live my life, I live a lie,
because I hide, the pain inside,
when I live my life, I live a lie,
because I pretend you're alright,

In closing I would like to say,
that you will be remembered every day,
you won't be forgotten, in the back of my mind,
your presence still lingers, just one step behind,
forever I'll miss you, I wish you were here,
and when the truth becomes painfully clear,
my heart will be breaking, my eyes full of tears,
because you won't join me, for the rest of my years...

In loving memory of Roxann Marie Baxter,
January 16, 1986 - May 26, 2007