What to do??

Thoughts rushing through my head
spinning round and round they go
lying on my bed
deciding on wut to do

do i pick up that razor
slit my rust
cry until i finally fall asleep

the answer is yes
it happened to me more then once
and i cant seem to get past my misery

looking down at my scars
just makes the feeling even worse
each one representing another mistake
another guy

I'm lost now
not really sure how to go on from here
all i no is the slitting over a guy
is not worth it but its my only solution