Let Me Let You Go

This is already over,
But really, it's not the end.
Not only because I'm still in love,
But because you're my best friend.

Though I'm not sure how to deal
With all the ups and downs,
I beg of you to leave,
But wish you'll stay around.

Of course it wasn't perfect,
It was hard to make it work.
Sometimes I was a pain,
And often, you, a jerk.

But I did the best I could
To keep the love alive,
But just as people do,
Love eventually dies.

Now everywhere I go,
And everything I do,
Is just a small painful reminder
Of every second spent with you.

So I attempt to bring it back,
Even just for a bit.
I try to squeeze into your life
Anywhere that I will fit.

And you've made it very clear
That I fit perfect in one place,
So I give myself to you
Just for a moments embrace.

And so when we are together,
There's just one thing we do,
And I take it every time,
Even though it is untrue.

Because you know how to get me
And just how I want to feel.
You look me in the eyes
And make me think "This times for real."

Because I know how much you hated
To cuddle, hug, or squeeze,
So you'd think that I would notice
That you're just being a tease.

But time and time again,
I fall for the same old tricks,
Because I'd rather it be me
Than some other random chick.

Then you hold me in your arms,
And brush away my hair.
You softly kiss my cheek,
And make me think you care.

And soon enough, you know it.
My pants have been undone.
My shirt is coming off,
And once again it has begun.

The entire time, I'm gone.
It's like I'm high and drunk off you.
I have no self control
Not when it comes to you.

Then after wards, you change again.
Back to the same old guy.
You quickly move away,
And make me have to cry.

You button up your pants
And then you light a smoke.
And with myself, I'm so disgusted
I wish it was a joke.

I can't say no to you,
And also not good bye.
And when people think that I'm upset,
That's something I'll deny.

Because I just can't move on,
You're everywhere to me.
I gave you my everything,
And I just can't set you free.

Whenever you want me, I'm yours.
But I can never have you back.
And the courage to let go,
Is something that I lack.

I don't want to change,
Because my life was built for you.
I was born to make you happy,
So that's what I try to do.

But it's killing me inside,
So much that I can't sleep.
I'd rather lie awake,
And shout and scream and weep.

I need you to stop playing
Your simple games on me.
My heart dies more each day,
And it's something you should see.

You're forever my best friend,
That's something that you know.
But you need to pull away...
And let me let you go.