Excuse Me If I'm Upset!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You called tonight to tell me
dad almost died on Thursday
excuse me if I'm upset
but this is freaking Saturday

you wonder why
I'm so messed up in the head
could it be the way
that i was bred?

i wasn't yours from birth
and I've always felt lost
been searching for roots
at almost any cost

wandering this life
asking myself how come
you ever adopted me
then treated me like scum

i didn't choose you
you chose me
just who the hell
do you want me to be ?

in spite of how i was raised
I've come a long way
no matter what you think
or what you say

i learned at an early age
how to detach and not feel
been years since i left the nest
a lifetime spent trying to heal

next time, leave me a message
tell me what's going on
just for once
can't you make me feel i belong?