The sun so bright in the eyes I watch so intently from my dark world, your intent eyes,
Shining from above, my angel so bright, you are in the sky so high above my head,
I look above and see those eyes so bright; I have to look away, far away from those eyes,
To see the darkness of my own mind and world, this world is so dark, so dark,
My heart freezes and creaks as I watch this world buzz by, I try to close my eye’s on it,
You tell me to keep my eyes open and watch where I am going so I do not stumble,
Well, think I have been stumbling on in the road that is life, once I stumbled onto you,
You where there once in the road of my life and I stumbled right into you that day,
You did not blink or even falter in the step of your life, you just walked right on,
Right on, in then out of my life in what felt like a few seconds, but was maybe more than that,
I still stumble, you still walk on with a confidence; I can not match your stride,
You walk on out of my life further every day, it went so fast that I did not see it come and go.
I now see you at a distance, now you join a string of friends I can not see so clearly,
Not any more do I see the feelings I could once see so clearly, no they are distant,
So distant that I will not care soon for what they are, step ahead of me if you please,
I will just stumble on, as those around me walk in their clear lines of life I can not match,
I stumble because I am very different from those around me, I do not think the same,
I stumble because I am not sure which is the path I should be taking, but I will stay on.
I watch the distant figures of those who have found my stumbling a feeble excuse for life,
They have left this life of mine and may return some time, but some may never return,
I don’t mind much any more it is not my life they lead, it is there own and they can have it,
I don’t need what they think of as a life, I have my own life to lead, my own special way,
I will not live my life any other way, it is my life to lead my way, there are few who share this,
I will have my own life till it ends, then I will have my own life still with a few changes in it.
Now my life is as you see it, a stumbling mess, you and no one can fix it, only I can do that,
Why would I want to change my life? It is my life and it is the way I like it, all ways was,
I will close my eyes one-day, open them and then find the strait, clear life I am missing,
I will smile upon that day and think it the start of a new life, but it is only the beginning,
It is only the beginning of the beginning, but still the beginning of something special,
There will always be people coming and going from my desolate life, you are among them.
All I hold dear are the ones that come and go from my life, but most they play the big part,
Why dose it seem that I always lose the people I hold dear by telling them the utter truth?
Can you tell me this? Or is it some thing I must find out my self? Or is it the “big” secret?
Whatever it is, it is something I do despise and I will all ways despise it no matter what,
I will smile the day that my questions are answered for me, but that day may never come,
You once told me, never lose the hope I have had in my heart since I was born, I haven’t, yet.
I still hold strong to the so few words I have ever uttered in this small life that I Live,
It has been so few words I have ever uttered at all; not one person has yet noticed that one fact,
You did once and you worked to bring me out, it worked, I am no longer as quiet as I was,
The words now run more freely from my lips, since the day I meet you, I have changed so much,
I had changed before I met you, but not so much as when I met you, no not at all, never,
I lay my head back and close my eyes, your eyes still on my mind, so bright are they still, to me,
So bright are your eyes, I can still see them in my mind to this day, that image will never leave.
