Don't quite know how or even why
That this lad chose me after all this time
I caraved his touch for such a long while
And now I can have it when I desire.
But I feel like his touch is not needed
I dont need the warmth from his kiss
I'm in a mess, I like him so
But there is no electricity in his caress
He is sweet, his words make me melt
He is genuine and open and I trust him so
A best friend, an easy chat on the phone
I'm actually scared, he said he will surprise me
Will he show up at school tomorrow and then,
That means to show emotion in front of everyone
With their laughing, digging eyes at me
SHould i feel ashamed? I shouldnt
I mustn't come to their jeers and jibes
Coz i am stronger, but I have had enough
Enough of "are you with him"?
To reply to a held back laugh
Screw you , you players have kept my happiness away
Away too long from me so while i have the chance,
let me have or I'll screw up his head
But you dont care as long as you do your piss taking
At some poor soul...
...who is always me
