In the shadows, by far, I swim my life,
Standing in the back ground to hide not fear,
Hiding form all around me always,
I have not fear for mortal people now or ever,
So how can I hind the fear I don’t have?
Can you hind something that you don’t have?
Questions running through my desolate mind,
I further my reach into the shadows with every passing day,
I fear I am closer to not fearing than I should go,
I am standing on the edge of a very thin line,
That I could cross by mistake or by not purpose,
If I cross, then I will fall to my absolute doom,
Can but nothing reach me where I stand?
Can but nothing, at all, save me from my doom?
Am I to reach a point of absolute darkness?
Where none but the bravest to the brave venture,
But as I stand a fire burns within me, brighter than the light,
Am I to be like the fire of my own desolate soul?
The fire within that burns brighter than the sun,
The only fire I can not hold in my own burnt hands,
To balance the fire of my soul what do I have?
Not all know what I have to balance off what burns within me,
Because the ice of my heart is hared to break even hared to see,
Not one person can break the ice around my heart, not one at all,
Some may try but, do they think they can succeed?
I can call forth the powers locked deep within my own soul,
I can light my own path with shadows of darkness,
Do I even dare to try and change my ways?
Do I want good or evil to be my shade?
Do I call upon my fire or my ice to help me?
Or do I hold them deep and close and follow others?
Do I follow clan or friends or family, do I fall apart?
I close my eyes to get away, but only open them onto another world,
A world deeper than this I am meant to live in only,
Both of my worlds collide in my desolate mind,
Both come together because I exist in one,
One knows of the other, but few know in the reverse,
I, they say, am a special person to know both worlds as my home,
I, they say, have a power that may save both worlds,
I know I am going to do my best for both worlds,
I know I would die fighting for all the people I know,
I may have a surprise install for any attacker I may have,
I may be the defeat of many foolish people,
But the highest defeat that I will have is of myself,
I am losing a control I once had over my life in a whole,
I just hope I can help my friends before I am defeated,
I just hope that they understand the love I have for them,
I trust in them that they would do the same for me,
To me, I some times wish this had never happened,
To me, I wish that I were as normal as any one else,
I do so wish that it were not my fault some friends are in danger,
I relies that I am a danger to the people I love the most,
I cry for those that have been lost to me by my enemies,
I weep for the loss of so many innocent people,
I shed a tear for the biggest loss that I shear with so many,
I do so wish my biggest pain would leave me be,
I wish I had not lost so many friends in so small a life,
Is it that light opposes dark, as is good to evil?
Am I forever caught in the struggle for power of light and dark?
Is it black and white or light and dark or just good and evil?
I do not know if I will ever find out in this life,
I would wish to know, but who can know?
If I die, I would wish my friends to know how much I loved them,
And that I wished them nothing but good will,
I have one last wish and that is that I had no enemies,
What am I in both of these worlds that are so close in my heart?
What am I to all of these people that I know and have known?
Am I but a tool to help them all win an ever-lasting war?
Or am I an important person to all of them?
Shall I ever know the answers to all of my questions?
Or shall I forever stand in shadows of darkness?
