Past

Its hard to let go
Of this horrible past
For it taunts me each day
The pain from it, forever last

I cant stop thinking of it
As it laughs me in the face
I to move on
But it wont ever be replaced

I cry out at night
For it leave me alone
I want to make it by myself
Live life on my own

The blood goes to show
I have not moved on from this
I wish non of it was true
Just for the past to not exist

I hate when its all I can think of
For it scares me to death
Each memory suffocates me
I loose my breath

Thinking about it each day
Drives me insane
To block it out
I cut myself for the pain

But even after I finish that
The past is still there
Knocking me back to the floor
Im left with only my prayers

Nothing I do
Will ever make it go away
I have to face the fact
My horrible past...forever to stay