Sometimes I look at my life and the future and want to cry
The thoughts that go through my mind makes me want to die
Nothing that anybody can say or do will ever ease the pain
Thirty years of hurting and not much to show but a crazy guy going insane
I'm getting tired and often don't know why
I want to sleep but my mind just can't reply
I wake up with sweat and shivers and full of confusion
The pain in my chest and mind are almost amusing
What do I have to do to make all this just stop
Should I hold up a white flag and ask to give up
I don't know how much longer I will last
I think everyday of things that went wrong throughout my past
The future does not look like it will be too bright
I can see the outcome in front of me every night
Maybe something is telling me to give up and just go
I'm just not sure how to tell everyone my mind is about to explode
My brain feels so blank at times and often so numb
My heart is just sinking into the black never ending gloom
I wish I did not have anybody that cared for me
Things would be easier for me to end this dreaded misery.
