Doubt and Fear

It's deep in my heart.
It's the feeling of care.
It's the feeling of love.
Care and love that I should share.

But there's a pair of my thoughts
That I can't push away.
Doubt and fear fill my mind.
Crowding my thoughts every day.

I'm scared to care.
I don't want to feel.
What if I get so hurt
That I will never heal?

I don't want to love
And not be loved in return.
If I dared that,
I would crash and burn.

It's hard to care and love
When you're filled with doubt and fear.
It's the reason for my pain,
It's the reason for every tear.

~Originally written 1-6-2007~