I Feel Strange

What is the name of this feeling?
It's deep inside of me.
Because of it I'm different,
It touches everything I see.

This feeling makes me remember
Every memory, every thought.
The good, the bad.
Every battle ever fought.

It changed the way I see.
The world seems so new.
My thoughts are clear now,
I just don't know what to do.

I can't eat anymore.
I can't sleep at night.
It's like I've given up on life,
I've lost every fight.

I feel pain easily now.
But I quickly heal.
I don't know how to act.
What is it that I feel?

~Originally written 1-7-2007~