Mistake

I don't deserve the love
That you have given to me.
I said stuff I never meant.
I hid so you couldn't see.

I don't deserve your care.
I didn't understand
That I had to be better
When I reached for your hand.

I made a big mistake.
My heart is so hurt.
My soul is marked with pain,
Like a black spot on a white shirt.

Will you ever forgive me
In spite of all I've done?
I don't know how I could
Hurt you and think it was fun.

~Originally written 1-31-2007~