I never intend to leave you behind,
But if recovery's road looks more appealing,
Fall ever on - I'll be joining you soon enough,
And even though you find me skin and bone,
I will always love you
I recite my daily routine,
And mutter to my pitiful esteem,
I see no point in living if I cant be beautiful
If she stays there can be no room,
For both of us - this is the way
I wait patiently anxiously in the midst,
Of doubts that wish to smother me,
The constant anguish of being befriended,
To an all mighty queen of misdeed,
I can never compare - till now
Will you still love me my darling ?
When I no longer answer to my name,
I stand alone head bowed and teary eyed,
Your calling someone but I cant hear,
No one had ever waited on me before
I opened my mouth to have the words stolen,
Inside my body slowly dismantled,
While my soul struggling on crutches,
So suddenly a moment of triumph will be snatched,
If I give into your inspiring preaches
I will wait the painful aching out,
As it is always overthrown by the grueling echoes,
Of what loneliness entertains,
But company wont matter when I'm beautiful,
In my vanity the mirror will suffice
I pull the heads of wilting flowers,
In rage of a lovers betrayal,
But another I greet with reluctant lust,
With promises of being so wondrous,
I will no longer recall your name.
