So This Is What Goodbyes Taste Like

Just one song is all I need,
To rip open this wound so it will bleed.
With each haunting word I'm reminded of your eyes,
And with each mournful note I tremble at the thought of your goodbye.
Turn the volume up, suffocate this suffocating pain-
The beloved stereo is now worthy of my blame.
Let each bone shake with grief and noise,
Each breath I take shiver with triumphantly depressed joy.
I make no attemtp to stop this mental onslaught,
In a sick way I somewhat enjoy being so distraught.
I accept it finally- all my weaknesses and fears,
That have built up and followed me around for the past years.
Let the sound lift me off my feet and jolt me into the air,
Spinning me around faster than I would ever dare.
Ecstasy takes control and I cannot hold it back anymore,
I fall with ease into my sea of tears and land harshly on the ocean floor.
So now I open my eyes and numbly try to swim to the top.
But I refuse to block out these sounds, and the attack still hasn't stopped.