I use to write,
about us,life, the things that i cared for so much.
now i look down ,
i see a puddle the reflection i see is me,
a drop of my tear that lands into the little puddle in front of me,
i cry every night wishing i could be with you, you told me too
that you still love me
but it wont ever work,
were too differnt people.
but if were so different why is it hard for both of us to let go??
i never felt this way before for anyone.
you can do the oddest things the disgustest stuff but im still there beside you telling you ur a goof but i love it
holding your hand i wish to never let go but i know slowly we'll slip away
and go our sperate ways
the times im with you i feel like its just me and you.
us together again.
as yeserdays past and the next days come i rember everyword that you tell me,
i know you've moved on and you told me your in love, my heart droped but a smile came to my face, why
cause all i want is you to be happy i love you so much i want you to be the one love and happy again,
maybe im just not ready... casuse im stuck
but you told me i was your first love. i wanted to cry as you told me ill always have a spot in ur heart.
tears.pour into the puddle you grabbed me face softey and said look at me i didnt want to i was scared to see the truth. you looked into my eyes "i love you nicole" kissed me and holded me tight while i cryed on your shoulders. i wanted to sceram and yell at you for leading me on while you have a girlfriend. b***h why cant we be togther like were suppose to. i hate you. how can a year and a half just past liek its nothing. i asked and you said it'll never be over between us,there'll ALWAYS be something i love you. and i said it back holding my tears back . I know its wrong i helped him cheat but it felt normal... and he said taht too not feeling guilty to what you just did
but i cant take it anymore i love you i wish i could tell it to your face at the right time day and place i still rember liek it was yesterday us togther no-one to worry about your my bestefriend in the world i trust you so much and love you so much words cant even explain the feelings i hold in front of you trying to be happy for you, but deep down im crying hurt alone scared without you there. LIKE i even tried to get you out of my life buit i cudnt do it . not talking to you made me hurt even more i need you there beside me telling me things are goign to be oki. without you there im lost... but i wnat to know DO U LOVE ME... or is it done over with.... but tell me why you love me an answer iv never asked cause im scared to know the answer too. im scared to lose you but i wanna tell you ur my one and everything even thou were not one anymore your my heart my breath wioth you im wudnt be here. u complete me is this love.??
i know this isnt actually a peom but i had to get this out its how im feelings its werid and may not even make sense but any ideas to what i should do?
