Death of me

I pop two pills so I can
sleep tonight, knowing in
my heart this feeling just
ain't right.

I don't know the person
that I have became, because
of you I will never be the same

Smoking cigarettes and drinking
until I'm gone, knowing that this all
is oh so very wrong..

I cry so many tears that no one will
ever see. I could never let them know
what this is doing to me.

I put on a smile and laugh the day
away, when inside I'm hurting and my
heart begins to decay.

I losing weight like crazy, my
family suspects Meth, little
do they know I'm just
starving to death.

I darken my make up, to hide the
circles under my eyes. My life is
just a circus of endless lies.

some days you'll call me, others I
don't even hear a sound. Thats
when another tear falls and hits the
ground.

I know I should leave you, I
have before. But for some reason
I walk right back into that door

I think "maybe you'll change"
or "you're just lost and alone"
but then you go and call more
girls on your phone.

I know I love you and you
love me, but if I stay here this
love will be the death of me.