When I hear his name whispered
my heart rate spikes insanely
I hear his songs through my speakers
and then I sigh ever so slightly
There is so much about him
that stuns me so completely
His voice, his face, his smile
Everything still enraptures me
It’s more than a little insane
Just how much a hug can change
When it comes from him
It can brighten the darkest day
It’s ironic how crushes are so aptly named
Well perhaps not always
But so it seems in this case
That my crush will crush me completely
I hate feeling like I can’t be good enough
Like the pain in my heart will just be built up
A feeling I have felt a few too many times
In these most recent of years
Is it true that these trials will never dissolve
that I will always be the girl in the back
With no hope of a crush coming out
And actually becoming something a little more?
Oh please, Oh please I'm begging you
Please don't let that become me
Don't let my heart shrivel and waste away
Don't let my ability to love or trust deteriorate today
