Dad, it's been far too long...

It's taken me years just to forgive you.
To forget everything that you've ever done.
Silence circles my heart tonight, as I remember...
Your face echos in my head.

It's beaten me forever now just listening.
Listening to your voice as you mumble a goodbye.
Bitterness surrounds my soul, as I remember...
Your voice trembling down my spine.

It's pulled me as far as I can possibly go.
Pulled me to the ends of my sanity from the pain.
Broken hearts cry meaninglessly, as I remember...
Your promises you never kept.

It's killed me so harshly, just to watch you walk away.
Watch as you lie and leave again and again.
Memories haunt me tonight, as I remember...
Your hand holding mine tightly...

Your daughter... Your life... You left me in the cold for too long,
And now... I'm ready to feel the warmth again.

You've driven me insane for far too long.
Too long have I tried to make it all right, with us.
You never tried, you could of as well as died...
For it feels as if your soul haunts me.

....Are you gone yet?

-Liz-

(this is about my real dad... it's really hard for me to think about this long enough to put it all together into a poem, but I needed to get this out. And while I'm leaving this message, I'd just like to say, I love you Tam! Tam is my step dad who took me, and my brother, and my mom in when we had no where to go. He has been there for us for so long now, and I can't believe, after so many years of never having a true father figure, I have one. My first dad left me and my bro, and my moms 2nd marriage was abusive, and had anger issues.... But my new dad makes everything better. So for that, I thank you Tam, my father. I love you.)