I'm Sorry; I Did This For Me

Hollow as the walls that surround me
I am dead inside
I wish you could see
I really tried

Denial and bottled feelings
I held on too long
Faintly painted as these ceilings
I dont quite belong

Did you not notice?
The words we spoke
Were shallow as the deep seas
Perhaps no more than a joke

Dark as night
I have become
Im not quite right
Actually, I am really quite numb

You think because you shine
Still with the sun
That I am fine?
You are not the only one

Our feelings are not on queue
My heart is not to be synchronized
And torn askew
I am not a machine

I cry when tears edge their way
I laugh when amused
I fall into deep depression when I know Im not okay
And I am at complete peace when I hide in this room

I know you say that you, too, are broken
And maybe you are
But now I have spoken
And you still seem so far

I need a break from this
Stop trying to figure me out
Youll never fix what has gone amiss
This I need to do without
You

Yell if youd like
Scream in my face
But no longer are we alike
Some things you cant replace

Once we were close
Sisters, even,
And no one knows
What Ill be leaving

Im sorry to you
Didnt want it to end like this
But I would only be untrue
If I did not stop the charade now

Hate me for what Ive done
Hate me for what Ive become
But for me, the hard times have only begun
And I must run from
You