Chain Reaction

Too many break downs to hold on,
this love I felt is gone,
it left the day you gave everything away,
you let it go without a worry in the world.

I've laid awake all night,
trying to understand the reason,
if leaving was your only choice,
why didn't you leave sooner?

Too many lies have went through these ears,
I don't know what is real,
to this day I feel nothing,
but the numb pain of my past.

I've been staring at this blade,
it seems so friendly,
but yet also so deadly,
why should I do it?

Too many people would be killed,
a chain reaction has already been triggered,
that numb pain is coming again,
I have no choice but to cut it out.

I've been digging through my skin,
with that deadly blade,
as my heart is going to be left for you,
will you even want it once it's out?

Too many unseen beauties died this way,
my heart is out laying on the floor,
so pick it up and tear it so more,
there's nothing left to give but that.

I've been dead on the floor for hours,
with that blade covered in blood,
your words run through my head,
so are my actions going to effect you?

Too many deaths in so little time,
the chain reaction was completed,
the only thing I'm wondering is,
are you a part of that chain reaction?