I remember running and hiding from you
I used to be so scared
afraid to go anywhere
because I know that you would be there
waiting with a strap of leather
the red on my skin begins to break
I tried to hold back my tears
lying to my self..pretending their fake
why would you do this to me
things shouldnt have to be this way
you've done things to me no one will ever see
I'd rather die then see you another day
understand mother that this is a hard letter
and that me pleading for you to stop wont make things any better
I remember always trying to stay at school
I never wanted to go home
knowing you were there
knowing we were alone
I'd walk through the door
and you pulled my hair as I ran for the phone
you pulled my hair
and told me "your the reason my life is unfair"
I used to cry so much at night
trying to hide
trying to stay out of sight
but you always found me
because of you I forgot what it meant to smile
at the age of 7 already slitting my wrist
I wished you loved me like a mother should love her child
instead when I speak your name I clench my fist
and bit my lip
letting out quite tears
something that no one else is going to hear
I wish things were better
I wish things changed
but instead I sit on my bed
with my finger on the trigger hanging my head in shame
