Pain: deeper then the heart

Im still crying,
tears that will never stop,
your words reached my heart,
and dug deeper,
into the pain that is already my soul.

no one knew my pain,
no one knew what to make of me,
i could never explain,
the doubt in my mind.

i tied to blend in,
tried to be normal,
but all i could be was myself,
miserable, lonely, pathetic.

No one expected me to be like this,
they thought id recover,
they never knew,
how deep words could go.

i wanted to teach them a lesson,
make them sorry,
it became much more,
it became a monster,
the monster that was me.